Many times I have opened this tab to post. And closed it untouched.
David asks me daily if I've posted. Multiple times a day.
The answer is always the same.
No.
Some things are difficult. I don't do well sharing difficult things on a blog meant to make other people smile. So I remain silent.
This holiday season has been tough in so many big and little ways. There's not a day that passes that I don't find fresh ways to miss Mom. Things I'll think of to share with her the next time we talk. Finding a new recipe and thinking it is something her allergies would allow her to eat. Celebrating my baby's tenth birthday without the familiar call or card with her handwriting neatly inside and "Happy Birthday" always surrounded by quotes. Hearing the phone ring and looking at caller id.
Watching the calendar roll to the first year spent entirely without her.
It has not been easy. But it is over. The family has celebrated new milestones. (our baby is now in double digits....10 years old!) Someone is now a half century old....and it isn't me!
A new year stretches ahead holding yet unknown delights and sorrows. I'm sure 2017 will hold many sweet times. And though I am sad that none will include Mom, it is time to move ahead. Life at the zoo hasn't stopped, and I don't want to miss the moments life will bring with family and friends.
So I apologize for the long silence, and I'll try to pick up my blogging pen and get back to sharing the insanity of our lives at the zoo.
Soon.
Thank you for caring and for understanding. I love you all.
I thought about you and your whole family multiple times this holiday season. Firsts are the hardest part of losing someone we love. Life does get easier after we get through all the firsts without the loved one; however, it isn't ever exactly the same again. I pray that the light of the One who loved us enough to die for us will surround you with peace and comfort through the continuing firsts. Cheryl Marshall
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